Make Everyday A Holiday

Wouldn’t that be the dream?

Thank God we don’t take the advice of chocolate. I enjoy the satisfaction of hard work. Blood, sweat, & tears seeping out from the temperament of the soul, determined to attain its goal. A goal inspired and created by a longed admiration; an admiration that could only be fulfilled by the enthusiasm of passion, drive, and determination.

This blog is the start for my exposition.

Almost two years ago I had fifty dollars in my bank account and less than optimal grades. I was living at my best friend’s parents’ house, trying to get back on my feet. My best friend’s parents were my saviors; they recognized a potential in me and helped guide me to success. I took a semester off in an attempt to save money to pay for school and start a life of my own. I was too stubborn for the rules that came with my parents’ financial aid offers. I also figured the break from school would inspire a greater motivation towards my education… and boy did it! It was a blessing that I took that semester off when I did, as half way through what would have been my school’s fall term my mom was diagnosed with stomach cancer. Not having the burden of school on my hands made the opportunity to leave and take care of my mother. I exchanged my Atlanta lifestyle for the country-esque living of North Carolina and lived at my mom’s house secluded by the woods for a month. Relieving my mother’s requests after the surgery included cleaning her feeding tube, preparing her meals, monitoring her bathing, maintaining her house hold, and various other responsibilities. It was hard to put my life on hold and take care of someone else as I was going through a part of my life where I felt that I needed to focus on my own goals. While my life does revolve around me, I will without question tend to my friends and family when they are in need. After taking that semester off I decided to continue on my break and take a year off of school instead (at which point my friends and family began to doubt my return) because even though I was financially stable I wasn’t at a comfort zone that I considered sufficient (I sincerely disagree with the idea of pulling out student loans.). Intermediately pausing my college career to build the finances I needed to continue my education was not something that I wanted to do. For the remainder of that year I experienced a crazy relationship with a guy that resulted in a display of his stalker characteristics, overbearing personality, and eventually intervention on behalf of the police. While I do not want to get into the gory details of what all happened throughout this experience, suffice it to say that I came away from it having learned a lot. After all the crazy happenings that took place in my life throughout my time away from school, things have finally come together. I have saved more than enough money to live comfortably and pay for school tuition. I am in a healthy relationship with someone that understands communication, respect, and all of the factors that contribute to a successful relationship. My boyfriend is a large facilitator of my inspiration; his enthusiasm to learn and drive to prosper really lifts my spirits. I live on my own and pay for my tuition and all other living expenses. In retrospect I’ve only gotten to this point because of the baby steps that I have taken and the amazing people who surround me. Even when my body is physically exhausted and my mind begins to feel defeated I can always rely on the motivation from my loved ones to keep pushing me forward, and for that I am more grateful than words could ever express.

So now that you have a little background about me I want to share my goals for this blog:

First and foremost, I absolutely love to write. So I wanted to introduce some of my work and encourage feedback. I know I’m not the strongest or most grammatically correct but I do love words. And people keep asking to view my work but I’m shy and this is a way to get over that ;)

Second I want to create a page to express myself and can share things that appeal to me. So even if you aren’t here to view my works you could check out the works of others I choose to share…you might like them instead.

Third…just because.

If you have taken the time to reach this far into what I have just written, I would like to say thank you. It really means a lot to me that you’ve taken the time out of your day to review just my thoughts.

So yeah, introduction to my blog! :)

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